I want to get real and have authentic conversations about Anxiety/ Fear/ Depression. So many people are dealing with this. Inside and outside the church. Yet nobody wants to talk about it! Cause it would shame us, or mean we have a lack of faith in God and ourselves. So we suffer in our own silence, embarrassed to share and open up about what is really going on inside.
We are living in an age where we all want to be perfect for the world outside, be the best version of ourselves, have our own businesses, be our own bosses, we want to have the perfect family, drive the latest car, wear the newest Gucci bag, have the latest iPhone, and live in the perfect house. We sacrifice our time, our health, our whole being trying to keep up with a lifestyle we can show off with. But to whom? For who? We want to follow everything and everybody and we want to be followed by everything and everybody cause we don't want to miss out. Don't get me wrong, nothing wrong with wanting to have a luxury lifestyle and having big goals but we have to keep it real. Every goal comes with a sacrifice. And we shouldn't hide away or feel a shame from sharing the ugly, painful, raw sacrifices as well.
Yes, my painful truth! Being a 39 single woman has been putting so much pressure on me.
I too have been dealing with depressed feelings and thoughts cause I felt like a failure. Why didn't I achieve all that I prayed for, all that I worked for, all that I studied for, all that I believed for.
Why was I in this place. Did God forgot about me? Did He oversee me? Why is this single season, taking soooo long. What do I have to learn from all of this? Why do I have to deal with these health issues? Why is my feminity/womanhood being attacked? What's going on? I felt as if my body gave up on me? It felt like losing all control over my life. Too many layers I could not carry any more. All of this brought me in a dark place, I daily fight hard to not fall back into. Life often times can be hard, difficult and painful. And yet we still manage to walk around with a smile on our face as if everything is perfect. I have been guilty on this 2. More and more I'm learning to open up and be real about my journey and the season I'm in.
I had moments where I felt like I'm just gonna stop and let it all go. Being tired of fighting all the time. Then God sends a word, a message, a sister, a brother or even a heart of a total stranger. Letting me know not to give up, not to give in. He shows me He is not letting go of me and my life still has purpose, even though I can't see it all the time. Sometimes I only see one part of the vision I need to work on. That is then what I try to do. One step at a time. Through my pain, through my struggles, through my own journey I try to encourage others, try to listen and try to stay positive. And one thing that I experienced throughout the Poetry&Talkshows, throughout my stormy seasons how encouraging, how empowering, how hopeful it is to share our stories, to talk about our feelings, to be authentic and to be real with one another.
If you are a Woman that can relate to this, do you have your own journey of fighting giants, feelings, emotions, sickness, loss, disappointments anything that has led you to a place of anxiety and/or depression? If you are a woman who is not afraid to be open and authentic about her life journey and that would love to inspire and encourage another woman with her life testimony I would love to hear from you.
Send me a message and I will get back to you.
Let's keep it real! ❤️
VisionsThoughts&Dreams
NMJ
