A long walk through the desert

One of my poems I recorded last week. Wanted to share but didn't totally complete the whole message yet. Wanted to do it over until it was perfect. One of the life lessons God is teaching me don't wait for perfection. He didn't wait until I was perfect to reach out to me. I was a sinner lost, confused and broken. That is the same way with life. If you wait until all your circumstances are perfect you will never make a step. We have been taught that everything has to be perfect, we wear masks in life to cover up our true identity, we create walls around our hearts, we use filters to make our lives look perfect on the outside. We basically have been thought to ignore that what is pure, that what is real, that what is truth. The day I embraced the living water that was offered to me. God took down every wall, every lie I believed to be truth and started to renew my mind and transform me. When we get a clear understanding who we are, whose we are? What we are capable of and why we are here? Mountains will move, giants will fall, the atmosphere will shift and the mask of this world will come down. You were born for more than just a job, you are not here to take up space, make some money, eat live and die. You were born for such a time as this, you were born to make a difference, You were born to make a change. Seek wisdom, seek knowledge, seek understanding, pray for revelations.

VisionsThoughts&Dreams

NMJ

Faith

Since I was a little girl I breathed faith. Although I could not see, I knew that there was something greater. I believed that what you could think, dream or fantasize it had to be possible. I still believe that if you can dream it, fantasize and believe it. You can make it come true. Why I always felt such a strong power in believing and in having Faith I do not know, but I thank God for placing that awareness in my heart. One thing I do know is that Faith has always been my focus in life, my rock to push on and to believe in the best of life and in the impossible. Now that I am richer in age, I am fascinated by the subject Faith. I love to read about Faith and I soak up all the preachings of TD Jakes about Faith. I just can’t get enough of that subject. I believe Faith has to do with my purpose. It is Faith that always makes me stretch forward. It is Faith that doesn’t want and doesn’t let me settle. It is faith that keeps my soul alive. Through Faith I live, through Faith I create and through Faith I believe I can do all things.  

I’m not here to say that it’s always easy. Believe me when I say I had moments I cried, I screamed, I got upset, got angry, didn’t understand anything of what was going on. Didn’t understand anything of God’s plan. But everytime He showed me that He was right there. He would send someone to bless me. Or He would give me a word through a preaching. A little child at work would say something special or would ask me to pray with her. Or a colleague would say how much I have blessed her. God always finds a way to show His love to you. He would show me His kindness and everytime I had to go back on my knees and humble myself. The funny thing is that after my crazy childish act, God would always give me my time to cry and after I cried my eyes out, He would say: When you are finished, I want you to get back up, put your head up high and don’t quit. Here I felt Faith pushing me to continue. To continue not to give up and not to settle for mediocrity or less. So through all the pain I still felt Faith pushes me to go further or to dig deeper within myself. There are treasures God placed inside of us that can only grow and bear fruit through pressure. Just like a diamond. Only pressure can make a diamond. Test and trials may come, but we have the promises of God that He would not leave or forsake us. And we have the promise that when we keep our eyes on God through the season of test and trials we will reap the fruit of our faith. We will be rewarded after the storm is over. Isn’t that a beautiful promise to hold on to Faith no matter what.

So I want to encourage you, no matter what you are going through right now. God sees it all. He knows it all. He is right there by your side. Pray and ask him what He wants you to learn from this season? What is inside of you that you feel you have to do? Sometimes we are being pushed to dig deep within ourselves because the gifts and talents, the answers are already there. There is always a reason for our seasons. Don’t give up believing, don’t give up on your dreams, keep your head up high. Know that after the season is over through Faith you will be rewarded for your Faith in God.

Faith: Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen

Hebrews 11:1