Where it all begins
Where did it all begin? Can you remember the day that you woke up and realize that you wanted to be a teacher, a doctor, a lawyer, a dancer or an actrice? Being inspired by the people surrounding you or what you have seen on the TV or heard on the radio. Suddenly there was a fire inside of you and you where determent to be what you desired to be. Is that fire still burning or did it slowly go out during the years because of life and problems. know that it's nerver to late!
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It was an amazing experience. Always loved acting, act crazy on stage and behind the mirror. (I still do that once in a while 😂) And when that audition came up. I really believed and claimed it was for me. I remember as a child, I used to dream, I used to dream big. Since I was little girl God placed great visions in my heart. Visions beyond my own imagination. Then somewhere along the way of growing up and disappointment after graduation and feeling trapped between a job where I cannot grow and develop that what God placed inside of me, and the same monthly bills over and over again. I started to loose pieces of me. Pieces of that adventurous girl living inside of me. I am a woman of purpose and believe we all have a purpose in life. Nobody is here just to take up space. I'm not there yet. The things that I am doing are just a beginning. When I was in Los Angeles and New York, away from the daily routine, I realized how much I neglected that girl inside of me, how much I neglected that, what gives me joy. I really try to guard my heart that I don't forget who I am, what I love to do and where I want to go. At the end of my road I don't want to die with all these dreams, thoughts and visions inside of me. I don't want to leave this place and missed the hope and future God has for me. I don't want to spend the best of my life selling myself, my talents and gifts to build up someone elses dream. I pray that you too will open up and listen to that spontaneous, adventurous girl or boy living inside of you. Too many times we forget about ourselves, we stop dreaming because we lost hope and faith. And then we get cut up in this rat race of life. I want to encourage you don't stop dreaming. There is a reason, a purpose why God placed these dreams and desires in your heart. Having a vision in life is so important. In the word of God, Salomo, the wisest man that ever lived said: Without a vision the people perish. We all need a vision that rises up the spirit within us. It is so important that we know who we are and whose we are. In God we find secret keys that will unlock the talents and gifts He placed inside of us, for a divine purpose. "Live your life or life will outlive you."
One of my poems I recorded last week. Wanted to share but didn't totally complete the whole message yet. Wanted to do it over until it was perfect. One of the life lessons God is teaching me don't wait for perfection. He didn't wait until I was perfect to reach out to me. I was a sinner lost, confused and broken. That is the same way with life. If you wait until all your circumstances are perfect you will never make a step. We have been taught that everything has to be perfect, we wear masks in life to cover up our true identity, we create walls around our hearts, we use filters to make our lives look perfect on the outside. We basically have been thought to ignore that what is pure, that what is real, that what is truth. The day I embraced the living water that was offered to me. God took down every wall, every lie I believed to be truth and started to renew my mind and transform me. When we get a clear understanding who we are, whose we are? What we are capable of and why we are here? Mountains will move, giants will fall, the atmosphere will shift and the mask of this world will come down. You were born for more than just a job, you are not here to take up space, make some money, eat live and die. You were born for such a time as this, you were born to make a difference, You were born to make a change. Seek wisdom, seek knowledge, seek understanding, pray for revelations.
The meaning of love goes through my mind a thousand times a day. The searching of Love goes through this world countless times in different ways. Who can say where it started and who can say where it ends?
Love has been already here, before we were here. We all love to love, but as much as we love, we also have the tendency to fall out of love. The only way to learn about love is to find love itself. God is love. He is jealous for our love for Him. He will never fall in and out of love with us. He loved us when we were still sinners drowning in our sins. He loved us so much that He gave His only begotten son to die for our sins while we were still sinners. Our human mind cannot comprehend the unconditional love that God has for each and every one of us.
Oke, Oke, To all my beautiful ladies. Some of you were asking me for this. So I finally took the step and created this video message to encourage you ladies with. May It inspire you to be all that God created you to be. You are beautifully and wonderfully made.
When I was in Los Angeles I had to record one of my poems in the Hollywood area. So I took my selfie stick and went outside, the sun was burning on my skin, but I couldn't leave the love of my life without introducing her to my passion. I had to combine those two together. The butterflies I feel inside each time I look at her beautiful sunset, the sound of the rhythm that becomes one with my heartbeat, the blush on my face by just calling her name. California you and I we have things thing going on. You rock my world. All my creativity and my ideas come to life when I inhale the energy of dreams and visions that God has blessed you with!
Sit down and count your blessings. Always remember the good times, it will strengthen you!
More of You describes my thirst and hunger for more of God's presence. The more we seek Him, The more He stretches our mind and heart desires into the things that are above. What do we have if we have the whole world but don't have God? Nothing. We should never settle or be content with where we are with our walk with Christ. God is everlasting so in this life we will never figure out all of His goodness, all of His greatness, all of His love and all of His mercy. Our assignment and responsibility as Christians is to seek Him more and more so we can hear His voice and walk in alignment with Him, to complete the plan He has for our lives.
More of You came forth after prayer, or actually while I was praying with my face flat on the floor. I was in tears cause I was tired of me and myself standing in God's way. I was tired of reading about all the promises and not seeing it come to pass, or seeing just little victories. I know and have always known in the core of my bones that God is real. No theory God, but a true living God. If you have ever had an encounter with God, you know, that you know, that you know that God is for real. He will speak to you in a dream, through a person and even through non believers. God can, and will use anybody or anything to answer a prayer or to get to your soul.
The reason we can't hear him is because all of the distractions in life. Television, Social Media, Music, Work, School. We do so much nowadays that we get uncomfortable to be with ourselves. When it's still and quiet, and the only thing you can hear is your own heartbeat. We don't know what to do with it and turn on music. We get on social media, call or app our friends. Anything to beat the silence in and around us. And that is exactly what God needs. That we come to the child within us, that is willing, that is open, that is pure. He wants us to come back to the heart of worship. That doesn't mean God wants you to be perfect. He want's you just the way that you are. With all your imperfections and flaws, with your hurt, with your pain, with your anger and with your jealousy. He just wants you to come at His feet and lay it all down and that you surrender. Surrender to His plan, surrender to his will for your life. He that formed you in your mother's womb knew you before you were born. He who know's you better than you know yourself, He knows exactly what you need to be happy, to be whole and complete.
It's important for us as Christians to know that we cannot find our happiness in things, we cannot find our joy in things and we cannot find our purpose in things if we don't find ourselves in Christ first. In him we find our true identity. In Him we live, move and have our being. When we find ourselves in Him, he will show us the hidden gifts and talents that lives within us. In God we will find the keys to unlock the gifts and talents to our purpose. We won't find it outside God. Yes, you may find a good thing, but you don't just want a good thing. You want the things from above. By that I mean you can have good things, but everything has a season and will pass away. You want your God given purpose that will lead and bring forth life. That is the ultimate goal of being called and chosen by the Lord. God didn't call or choose us to be like the world, but to show and represent His kingdom. He called us to show His unconditional love and to share words of life. We have been called to be the light in the world, to be the salt of the earth. We have been called to be like Christ.
Many times we pray and ask God to use us in a mighty way. We pray for miracles, signs and wonders, but we don't want to spend time with him. Or we just have instant fast prayers, and I use to do that too. But there is a reason why Christ woke up at dawn to pray. We cannot expect to walk in God's power if we don't make time to work on our relationship with Him. I am not saying that I am perfect, cause I am not. I do know that if we want more of the great I am, we have to seek him more, pray more, and really hunger to become more like His son. Less of ourselves and more of Him. I came to this point when I got tired of me, myself and I, me living in my comfort zone, tired of trying things on my own, in my own strength. I really wanted to see, hear and feel God's presence more than anything. God said it in His word. He is the everlasting God. He who was, is, and is to come. So I knew for myself if I couldn't hear Him, If I couldn't feel Him, I had to do some self research. I had to surrender and lay it all down at His feet. And yes, the atmosphere started to shift, things started to change. He has been renewing my mind and I have been hearing His voice so much clearer and louder. I am so enjoying the presence of The Lord and where He is taking me. God has a plan for each and every one of us, but it can only be revealed if we stay close to Him. If we seek Him and stay in alignment with Him.
I want to encourage you, if you are feeling like God is not there. If you feel like He is not answering your prayers. Seek Him. Be honest to yourself and talk to him, just the way that you are. God loves us so much that He gave His only begotten son to die for this world. Keep your eyes on Him and seek Him above all. Cause what do we gain if we have the whole world, but lose our souls. Even Christians walk away from God and go into the world to seek for joy and happiness. Temporary solutions. Only in Christ, we will find everlasting joy and happiness. I just want to encourage you to stay close to God and continue to seek Him more and more through prayer, through fasting, by reading your word and worship. God will answer.
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. Matthew 7:7
Since I was a little girl I breathed faith. Although I could not see, I knew that there was something greater. I believed that what you could think, dream or fantasize it had to be possible. I still believe that if you can dream it, fantasize and believe it. You can make it come true. Why I always felt such a strong power in believing and in having Faith I do not know, but I thank God for placing that awareness in my heart. One thing I do know is that Faith has always been my focus in life, my rock to push on and to believe in the best of life and in the impossible. Now that I am richer in age, I am fascinated by the subject Faith. I love to read about Faith and I soak up all the preachings of TD Jakes about Faith. I just can’t get enough of that subject. I believe Faith has to do with my purpose. It is Faith that always makes me stretch forward. It is Faith that doesn’t want and doesn’t let me settle. It is faith that keeps my soul alive. Through Faith I live, through Faith I create and through Faith I believe I can do all things.
I’m not here to say that it’s always easy. Believe me when I say I had moments I cried, I screamed, I got upset, got angry, didn’t understand anything of what was going on. Didn’t understand anything of God’s plan. But everytime He showed me that He was right there. He would send someone to bless me. Or He would give me a word through a preaching. A little child at work would say something special or would ask me to pray with her. Or a colleague would say how much I have blessed her. God always finds a way to show His love to you. He would show me His kindness and everytime I had to go back on my knees and humble myself. The funny thing is that after my crazy childish act, God would always give me my time to cry and after I cried my eyes out, He would say: When you are finished, I want you to get back up, put your head up high and don’t quit. Here I felt Faith pushing me to continue. To continue not to give up and not to settle for mediocrity or less. So through all the pain I still felt Faith pushes me to go further or to dig deeper within myself. There are treasures God placed inside of us that can only grow and bear fruit through pressure. Just like a diamond. Only pressure can make a diamond. Test and trials may come, but we have the promises of God that He would not leave or forsake us. And we have the promise that when we keep our eyes on God through the season of test and trials we will reap the fruit of our faith. We will be rewarded after the storm is over. Isn’t that a beautiful promise to hold on to Faith no matter what.
So I want to encourage you, no matter what you are going through right now. God sees it all. He knows it all. He is right there by your side. Pray and ask him what He wants you to learn from this season? What is inside of you that you feel you have to do? Sometimes we are being pushed to dig deep within ourselves because the gifts and talents, the answers are already there. There is always a reason for our seasons. Don’t give up believing, don’t give up on your dreams, keep your head up high. Know that after the season is over through Faith you will be rewarded for your Faith in God.
Faith: Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen
I wanted to ask all my brothers and sisters and to all the people in the world what are you gonna do with the time that you have left? Time is the most precious gift we have in life. No money in the world can buy time. Even though we often wish we could hold on just a little bit longer at the moment in that season.
I remember I had a season, I was constantly thinking about the future. Constantly working and only looking at the destination, that I forgot to enjoy the process. Until God opened my eyes and showed me that even in dry seasons there is a purpose. I may not have understood it then, but now I realize that God was forming me. God prepares and forms us for where he wants to take us. It's just like Joseph, he was sold by his brothers, became a slave and was thrown into prison. He had to go through a lot of persecution to become all that God created him to be. Even though he knew from a very young age that he was called for something great. He knew God had a big plan for his life and still he had to go through all of this. God had a reason for his season. Joseph might have not understood it then, but years later he saw the bigger plan God had with every season of his life. God was forming him, and instead of complaining Joseph used his time wisely and was still doing what he was called to do. Even in prison he continued to work with that God had given him. He used his time wisely, he didn't become weary in well doing and stayed close to the heart of God. And when it was time God lift him up and he became one of the most important person in Egypt standing beside Pharaoh.
There are a lot of distractions, negative sounds and meaningless things that surround us daily. I know that no one is here just by accident and that God knew us before the foundation of this world. I also know that we were born for such a time like this. Are we doing what God has called us to do, or do we get cut up in things that have no meaning at all. As a believer, I have noticed how important it is to stay connected with our source, that we seek first his kingdom. As it is written seek first the kingdom and his righteousness, and all the other things shall be added to you. So I want you to think about it. What are you gonna do with the time you still have left?